Dear Blog,

I have missed you.
I have a confession - for weeks I have been off track and I don't know why. I'm starting college next week, I started a new job yesterday and I struggle to even find time to spend with my boyfriend. How, dear blog, will I find the time for WeightWatchers? How do I plan my meals, when to exercise, when to eat... Please give me some insight on how to make it all possible.

Since we last spoke, 3.5lb of fat has attached itself to my ass.

It is hard to be *motivated* I need that little *click* you get when you decide enough is enough!

Or maybe I just need to get on with it.

I can't help but feel so overwhelmed by everything - It's a massive change in my life within the next few weeks and well, I would like to change with it.

Blog, expect to see more of me soon, expect to see me make some recipes - for the love of god expect to see a weight loss, a weight maintain and a f***ing trip to the gym!

Love, Helen

xoxo

I have a Confession

I didn't weigh in,

I, Helen, talked myself out of going and had multiple excuses to not go.

I don't know why, because I never miss a meeting, unless I'm sick or on holiday (and lets face it, when your on holiday W.W. is at the back of your mind)

I instead, went shopping. Yep thats right, I went shopping for a new outfit to wear to my friends birthday party on Saturday - I'm ashamed of me too.
However on the plus side, I did get a lovely new top, in a smaller size :) My mind told me to go for the smaller size (that did fit nicely) because if I were to pick the *normal size* I will adapt to an attitude were *fat* mind will tell me I need to *fill* my clothes out because look at allllllllll that room!
Plus I think it's a nice little mind trick!

I'm still working on my list atm, I'll be posting that soon, it's a short little post today because it's bedtime, I'm tired and I felt the need to update quickly (rather than never)

Until next time... :)

Tomorrow is a new day..

Yes it is.
Want to know why? Because it's okay to fall down and to pick yourself back up again, no matter how many minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years it may take, but as long as you do it, but only when you are ready. I'm obviously referring this to my Weight Watchers experience, I have learnt that if your not with it, you won't be committed and until you are fully committed, you won't successfully lose weight and adapt to a healthier lifestyle.

I've been struggling a lot, I've been debating whether or not I am committed, but then I remember my #1 Key note: I did not gain weight over night, it happened over *years* and its silly for me to think that I can just wake up one morning and *expect* myself to adapt to a healthier lifestyle in one day. I remember my leader once telling me that if you commit to cutting out a bad habit for at least 21 days, then you will crave it less and will be able to live without it.

And to help myself *commit* more I've came up with a little idea.

I found a little Size cap that you find on the hook of the hanger, mine being a Size 16 and I have attached to a little ribbon chain and I've added it to my key chain. So every time I look through my bag or open up my front door, I will see it and *think* about how horrible and awful I do feel at this unhealthy size. And who knows, maybe every time I see it and think 'oh I'll just have this extra biscuit, or order that Chinese,' I will think twice about it :)

(Sorry its not the best Photography, batteries on my camera where about to die so therefore the focus was a bitch)

Or looking at 'fat photos' constantly might do the trick ;)

Probaly around my highest 207lb

Hmm, maybe around 196-200lb

Around the 190'ishlb

Around the 180lbs

I'm going to go start a 'Why I want to lose weight and adapt to a healthier lifestyle' list and perhaps set some goals, before bed time!